Ja ich bin Deutscher. Das macht es deutlich einfacher zu schreiben. Tja 6 Jahre einfach weg… Ist echt scheiße.

Ich danke dir auf jeden Fall dafür, dass du das alles gelesen hast und dich mit meiner Situation beschäftigt hast!

Und vor allem auch für das Angebot!

Aber ich glaube ich will jetzt erstmal alleine sein… Ich fühl mich im Moment noch wie betäubt…

Ich konnte nicht weinen, wie beim ersten Mal. Sie dafür diesmal schon.

Meinte Sie hätte mich lieber erst jetzt kennengelernt. Im Moment sieht Sie in mir nur noch die Fehler die Ich am Anfang unserer Beziehung gemacht habe. Meint aber auch das es unfair ist, weil ich mich schon deutlich gebessert habe und man das auch sieht… Es nur halt nicht reicht.

Sie will mich nicht verletzen, aber Sie ist nicht mehr glücklich.

Sie will es sich heute nochmal durch den Kopf gehen lassen und mir morgen mitteilen ob es diesmal endgültig ist…

Zum Glück ist das Remaster von Oblivion released worden und ich hab noch Urlaub. Schlafen kann ich jetzt eh erstmal nicht mehr :/

Update: We just broke up.

Thank you for reading all this and being honest to me. Really appreciate it!

I will try my best.

Yeah I agree. That is one part of the problem, because I try to reach her and talk about things and she is really fast annoyed about all that.

I respect her boundaries and normally she does respect mine.

In the meantime she texted me, but not to this context. She just ignored it. I will drive in 2 hours to her parents house and will talk about it than.

I really just want to be a part of that for one time. So he knows that I am still in a relationship with her. And after that she can met him alone for some time again.

Because as mentioned, she doesn’t tell anyone about me (apart from parents and close friends. Kevin isnt one of those close friends). She wants that our relationship is a private thing.

Its just… That really bad taste, because he just did cheat with a person who was in a relationship. I do not trust him. And also will make him clear, that I am still in a relationship with her.

Yeah, I feel not completely sure in my relationship with her. But I am 6 years with her now.

That being said is, because I will do and drop anything for her. I encourage and motivate her on an daily basis. Whereas she doesn’t seem to mention me by her colleagues and maybe Kevin.

I met Kevin a long time ago, but I don’t know if he knows that she is in a relationship with me.

She says, that she doesn’t mention me, because our relationship should be a private thing. And if people don’t know that you’re in an relationship, they are nicer to you. She says she won’t talk about me with colleagues to get an advantage of it in her career.

We can continue with questions, if that helps to understand my situation. I would greatly appreciate it.

Exactly. Her Parents arent at home until Sunday. They would have the entire house for them alone.

She is extremely afraid of becoming pregnant. And she says my… Device is a little to thick to be enjoyfull for her. She says it hurts more than its joyfull.

But yeah. I am okay with this, if that means I can be with her. I really love her.

If you have any App you used before and isnt available on Linux: You can try to install the .exe-file with a Tool named “Bottles”.

Each Programm you run with that tool gets its own virtual Space, so if you mess something up, you can throw that one bottle away and just create another in its fresh New environment.

It has a clean UI and you can play with all kinds of different configs to get your Bottle to run. You can choose between different Windows Versions for example.

Under the hood it uses Wine and Proton.

Pro-Tip: Start Programms via the UI in “Terminal-Mode” so you can See potential Error-Messages which you would normally not see, if you just run the Programm.

Productivity:

• Habit Maker (Open Source and from the Creator of lemmy)

• Street Complete (Open Source, Easy Contributing and helping to update OSM-Data)

I need Motivation and often trick myself into doing some activities. Mostly per videogames. I try to do at least one Minigame per day and it actually helps with my Back-Pain. Continuity is key.

VR:

1. Beat Saber
2. Superhot

Nintendo Wii/Switch:

1. Wii Sports
2. Just Dance

Thanks for the lookup to that article! Very Informative and entertaining

Personally i would recommend ubuntu Server and host as much you can over Docker and docker-compose files (selfhost is sooooo easy since docker!).

Ubuntu-Server is light weight and uses an common package manager which is widely used. Also the system is matured and frequently updated.

You can install portainer on the Server and manage all your containers/services through an easy UI.

Also you could install Watchtower on it, so all your docker-containers will be updated automaticly.

Edit: If you are just unsure about the Distro of choice, here is an pretty nice Website to search for distros of any kind: https://distrowatch.com/search-mobile.php?ostype=Linux&category=NAS&origin=All&basedon=All&notbasedon=None&desktop=All&architecture=All&package=All&rolling=All&isosize=All&netinstall=All&language=All&defaultinit=All&status=Active#simpleresults

I simply love the Dutchs for their OpenSource-Mindset! I am pretty confident, that they will take the right decisions.

Personally i would like to See the Dutchs taking the lead in EU-Digital-Decision-Making.

I use Jellyfin for all my media and on Desktop like on My Linux-Phone an APP called “Supersonic” to connect to my Audio-library.

I really like it on the desktop, but unfortunetly it isnt build for mobile-devices. But it runs under postmarketOS on My OnePlus6T and it does its job.

Yeah, but can you post events anonymous there? I tried it a couple of Years ago and i didnt See that Option. But maybe that changed since then.

Also it seems Less active for my country (germany). In my area there is a instance called https://bonn.jetzt/ which is quite active and is also posting on Mastodon.

In my experience shit just works in Linux. I own an 10+ year old external DVD-Drive and an newer external BD-Diskdrive. And both of em work flawless on Manjaro.

Worth mentioning, that its an german non-profit project. Also it uses Bing’s Search-Engine.