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Cake day: December 23rd, 2023

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  • Hey. I’m so happy to hear that you are back doing music! Your happiness and joy means everything to me!

    The rest of your message reads as though you think you failed at something, but that really isn’t possible. You are amazing. If you ever feel like life is beating you down, it probably means you are trying to force yourself along a path that isn’t the right one for you. Long before you get to this point, please stop and look around and ask yourself if this road is even the one you are supposed to be on. There is absolutely no shame in deciding that you need to backtrack, but there can be great suffering, for yourself and those around you, if you keep trying to fit yourself to something that isn’t you.

    Make music.

    Have friendships.

    Only worry about money to the extent that you need it to survive. All other efforts should be put into joy and connections.

    I’m very proud of you.

    Edit: I thought of something else I needed to say. Don’t worry at all about the larger world.

    In fact, it is best just to pretend it doesn’t exist. Live small. Love everyone, even the assholes. Realize that their actions are born of fear. Do right where you are. If everyone stopped worrying about things outside of their immediate scope and instead focused on performing right actions where they are, the world would be better, but you can’t control everybody. You can only control you. Focus on the things you can improve and try not to know anything about the rest. You will be happier and better for those around you if you do.










  • You know… Maybe I interpreted the question wrong. I think I added the HYPER modifier to “gender”, rather than “real”. In my interpretation his gender sort of rotates in and out of 3d space like a hypercube. Now that I’ve noticed that the modifier was actually on “real”, I’m trying to figure out if that changes my answer. Because, while I may not know exactly what gender Bowie was going for, I know that his instantiation of it was far more REAL than most people manage to achieve.





  • There are a few things that actually make this better, if you want it to get better. I don’t know what your life situation is like, but under no circumstances should you go home after work and be alone. Go to a park and walk. Get a bike and ride. Join a boxing gym. Anything to be moving. Stay off your phone. They are basically unhappiness machines designed to make us want something other than what we have. Reach out to friends and family (I know I just said put your phone down, but communication is the one redeeming quality) And maybe most importantly, start some sort of therapy/meditation practice. I recommend IFS therapy. If you can’t afford a therapist, there is a book called Self Therapy by Jay Earley that gets you 90% of the way there.

    The realization that you will need to come to, which I can tell you now, but won’t really mean anything until you are ready to hear it, is that you can’t be “good” to be in another person’s life until you can be “good” by yourself. You have to learn to be ok company for you, and be ok in a room with just your own thoughts, before it is really fair to ask another human being to be in there with you. Right now you are learning that you aren’t ok without this person, or without some person. I’m learning the same thing now also, if it helps. Learning that is huge. Congratulations and condolences all at the same time. You have some work to do. You can do it, or you can not, but life doesn’t get better until you start doing it.

    I don’t know what it is worth, but there is a random guy on the Internet who wants you to succeed and learn to be content with yourself. Once that happens, the connections you make with others will be genuine and much stronger.

    DM me if you need anything at all, and I believe in you. The dark thoughts are not the truth. Your strength and kindness is the truth. Believe in that.