It’s been 6 years and I still crave cigarettes, or my vape, every time I see them being used. Could be 4 floors down in front of the building across the street through a window. I still want a hit.
But I did it. I don’t want to be remembered as that guy who left his daughter all alone in life because he’s a selfish prick. Choosing cigarettes over your own children is fucked.
It’s been almost 14 years for me now. It will never go away completely. Just 2 days ago I rewatched some Sopranos and saw Tony smoke a cigar. Immediately I was extremely tempted to order some nice cigars online. Quenched that though, remembering how last time I tried “just puffing” a cigar and immediately drew deep down (that was my single and only slipup). Nope, no cigars, no shisha, no nothing.
It gets less problematic every year though and the triggers get fewer. Seeing someone smoke in front of a restaurant e.g only triggers a “Uff, good for me that I stopped!” nowadays. That used to be different.
What I meant is, that if you really want to, it is defintly something eveyone can manage. Yes, the addiction is real. But the human will is an amazing thing. One has to find the reason why to want to stop. Then it is defintly possible for everyone.
I was the “Uff, at least I don’t smoke as much as he” guy people looked at to feel better about their own cigarette addiction and no one believed I’d ever stop. But when I really wanted to, I just did. The half assed 20 times I stopped before that though… One has to find his “I want to stop” reason to actually do it.
Stopping is that hard. But it’s not impossible.
It’s been 6 years and I still crave cigarettes, or my vape, every time I see them being used. Could be 4 floors down in front of the building across the street through a window. I still want a hit.
But I did it. I don’t want to be remembered as that guy who left his daughter all alone in life because he’s a selfish prick. Choosing cigarettes over your own children is fucked.
It’s been almost 14 years for me now. It will never go away completely. Just 2 days ago I rewatched some Sopranos and saw Tony smoke a cigar. Immediately I was extremely tempted to order some nice cigars online. Quenched that though, remembering how last time I tried “just puffing” a cigar and immediately drew deep down (that was my single and only slipup). Nope, no cigars, no shisha, no nothing.
It gets less problematic every year though and the triggers get fewer. Seeing someone smoke in front of a restaurant e.g only triggers a “Uff, good for me that I stopped!” nowadays. That used to be different.
What I meant is, that if you really want to, it is defintly something eveyone can manage. Yes, the addiction is real. But the human will is an amazing thing. One has to find the reason why to want to stop. Then it is defintly possible for everyone.
I was the “Uff, at least I don’t smoke as much as he” guy people looked at to feel better about their own cigarette addiction and no one believed I’d ever stop. But when I really wanted to, I just did. The half assed 20 times I stopped before that though… One has to find his “I want to stop” reason to actually do it.