Ever since I started a new job last year, I’ve been having these problems. I work in retail. I’m constantly making mistakes, I’m unfocused, forgetful, bad at organisation and using initiative, and sometimes struggling to hear or understand what people are saying to me. Like I don’t hear their words or they don’t register in my head. I’m also having trouble making conversation with my colleagues which is making it difficult to build a relationship with them.
It’s normal to make mistakes, but I am making them constantly and it often causes a great deal of frustration and embarrassment for me, as well as irritation for my colleagues.
I’ve tried to brush it off as me being naturally clumsy person that is very shy and introverted. But I feel like it’s something more than that, because I’m having genuine communication issues too when it comes to hearing and understanding what I’m being told.
I often will dissociate when in a new work environment, and it causes these symptoms. It will also feel like I’m not really the one moving my body, everything is far away/in a cave, and I’ll get incredibly startled by any person coming through a door or turning a corner. First time it happened at work when I was a teenager I sat in my car for 30 minutes after work because I didn’t think it would be safe to drive. It felt like I was intoxicated.
I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and then later autism