Man the self laothing still comes, even if you were diagnosed. I was on meds only for a very short time. Money and all that because the pills were expensive on my family’s insurance.

So yeah, I grew up knowing what was wrong and trying so hard to just seem almost normal on the surface, and now that I’m older and have my own decent insurance I’m scared of who or what I’ll be if I ever get back on the pills.

So yeah, yay self loathing.