My… mom came down with an incredibly debilitating form of neuropathy when I was just about to go from elementary to middle school.
I… know what its like to care for someone in a whole lot of pain, that doesn’t even make sense to your doctors and 95% of people around you.
But uh yeah, anyway, a placebo that helps is a coping mechanism, not a placebo.
Might I suggest upgrading to a turn based strategy game like Civilization or Humankind?
Slower paced, but much more cognitively complex and engaging… you can actually get lost in the sort of emergent narratives.
Less rapid, twitchy tapping/clicking than tetris, might be something you could play longer before your hands make you wanna scream.
Granted, requires a bit more powerful and expensive of a machine to run than tetris… but if you already have a laptop, you might be able to run newer ones with graphics turned down.
Lots of other turn based strategy games also exist with all kinds of different settings and themes, many with less high powered graphics requirements… Xenonauts (2 is in early access or beta right now), if you want to lead a fireteam to stop alien invasions, for example.
My girl is a saint and takes amazing care of me when I can’t. I know how lucky I am to have her. I’ve never had to be the carer other than when an ex recovered from a crash, but that was all bruising and whiplash.
The Tetris thing is actually pretty specific, it doesn’t work for everyone. It helps with intrusive images and thoughts for me. https://theconversation.com/can-playing-tetris-help-prevent-ptsd-if-youve-witnessed-something-traumatic-226736 I’m decent at Tetris, saved up and bought the OG Gameboy back in the day. I get into the zone when I’m feeling bad and I can feel it push out some the bad stuff. It’s something to do with the forced geometric thinking.
I never really got into strategy games except for Sim City. Adventure point and click, RPG (especially SF and Fallout 1-3), fps (Doom and Duke). These days, I find games that my girl enjoys watching such as Zelda. She does her yarning and I’ll play Zelda. Just finished Tears of the Kingdom, was thinking about replaying MYST or something next.
Ah, I didn’t realize the specifics of Tetris and the geometric puzzling being particularly effective.
But if you did like SimCity, and the earlier Fallout games…
There are a lot of modern rough equivalents to those.
Open Transport Tycoon Deluxe is roughly SimCity 2000 on steroids… more game mechanics, similar level of graphics, open source, totally free.
Fallout 1 and 2 have many, expansive, total overhaul mods these days, that basically use the base game and tell an entirely new story with it.
There’s also Fallout Online, which is I think a modded/jerry-rigged version of Fallout 2 that expands it and turns it into a multiplayer, sort of MMO.
Beyond that you’ve got like… Atom RPG Trudograd, the ShadowRun pc games, Colony Ship… there have been a multitude of isometric RPG games with turn based combat in the years since Fallout 1/2…
And, if you liked Doom… well, there are now tons of Doom mods, infact, a reworked and opensource version of the Doom engine, gzdoom, has actually served as the engine a bunch of successful indie games have been built off of… the Zoomers have given such games the moniker of ‘Boomer Shooters’… but yeah theres tons of those kinds of games on Steam or otherwise available.
…
But uh anyways, me?
I’m doing alright.
I could trauma dump about all the insane bullshit I’ve been through, but whats the point?
Hermit me is happy me, genuinely.
I’m a simple man at heart.
Very intelligent snd academically gifted, high functioning autistic.
“Hell is other people.”
Socializing often doesnt go well for me because most people are hypocritical bullshitters by default about most things, I call that out instantly and laugh at it, and because most people are so stuck up their own asses, they hate me for that… the few who can laugh at themselves become friends.
But in the end, all I need to be happy is food, water, shelter, a decent bed and chair, some kind of creative input/output screen or otherwise.
I used to play bass, would love to get into that or perhaps another instrument if I can get decent dexterity recovery… but I am now almost at the point where I can actually do a daily walk, and I honestly just love going for nature walks, so that’ll be great.
If I can get a cheap but not immensely shitty apartment somewhere close to Canada, I plan on making a video game … doesn’t have to make me rich, just serves as a creative and techbrained hobby… and, it might actually make some money, who knows.
Looks like the downvoters are chasing you again. Must be putting in work, fuckem.
I don’t get the same enjoyment from computer games that I used to. (I played heaviest when in highschool which was miserable and during my first marriage, which was hell) I rarely watch TV when alone. Tend to read or tinker, do some hardware hacking or whittling.
These days it’s a good way to spend time with my girl. Finishing up a Supernatural rewatch currently.
But yeah, it’s weird, I just don’t enjoy it the way I used to. Not that I don’t understand why people enjoy gaming so much. I’ve got a badass computer that I don’t think I’ve installed a game on. It’s built for CAD so it’s real beefy.
That, or I’m just becoming an old fart and casual gaming is more my speed.
My girl is high functioning, I’m crazy AF, but typical. When we were in a triad, that partner was high functioning as well. In the BDSM community, autists are so over represented compared to gen pop it’s wild. I don’t know what causes it, it’s probably a field that needs investigated. I tend to get along with autistic folks, always have, I think it’s a compatible communication style, I tend to over define by typical standards. Also, y’all don’t seem to lie much.
I’m a music lover and had music lessons on guitar and sax as a kid. However, I lack musical talent. I’m missing that spark that lets music flow and I can’t improvise or even come up with an original melody or rhythm. I just wasn’t born with it.
My talents are mechanical and artistic. I’m better at sculpture than drawing or painting.
You don’t have to have a reason to make a video game other than you want to. Maybe it makes money, maybe it doesn’t. Completing something you built, you put art and science into it, that’s a powerful thing. Taking an idea and making it real is an addictive thing. (Probably has a lot to do with why I love machining so much.) You should do it. Don’t wait until you’ve moved, no reason you can’t start.
Laying down and don’t have headphones, I’ll have to listen to it tomorrow.
Looks like the downvoters are chasing you again. Must be putting in work, fuckem.
Pissed off somebody with an alt account doing some hardcore gaslighing/copaganda.
Got reaaaallly mad when the concept of ‘abusive relationship’ being a bigger circle that contains ‘domestic violence’ within it came up.
Also got pissed when I told them their ‘counter citation’ from the fucking Polygraph Institute was bullshit on its face, as actual sciencr has shown repeatedly that all polygraphs do is show stress, nervousness… not truth at all, as someone may be able to calm down and lie, or tell the truth while having a mini panic attack due to trauma.
As to gaming… hey I mean, stick with your comfy with if thats what your comfy with, was just giving some suggestions if maybe you wanted a change of pace.
(I have my own barely substantiated theories about how you can psych profile people based on their favorite games and play time lol, but I’m pretty sure no one has ever done a publically released study on that… on the other hand, larger tech firms almost certainly have, and then cross reffed it with the social media data either from their own platforms or that they paid for)
To music: guitar and sax eh? Can’t say I’ve heard of that combo in one person before, but yeah… with bass, I’m the same in that I just am not that good at improvising.
However, I think I could learn some actual music theory, and then understand whats … actually going on, the rules the game is played by, and then be able to do it just a bit.
But… I can improvise on a harmonica, and while singing. I’m a decent baritone, and picked up a harmonica one day and it just… clicked. I cannot explain it at all.
Unfortinately, my computer, my bass… everything is all gone now, yay idiot family + more bad luck = me homeless for 2 years.
Gotta get my body in decent working order before trying to tackle anything else, so I am just doing that.
As for autists in the BDSM community:
To me the explanation is very, very simple.
BDSM communities have rules. Explicit rules.
Autists have sex drives just like anyone else, but … most people are too inconsistent and hypocritical to even have a normal relationship with, much less a romantic one, that isn’t plauged with a hypercharged version of miscommunication, as compared to neurotypical relationships.
I am at the point now where I would pretty much only consider a long term relationship with another autist.
But anyways, yeah, BDSM has rules. Autists like it very much when the rules are explicit and hard, not suggested and wiggly depending on a million other possible variables that will all be significantly different for every single person.
Autists also tend to be more curious. Try anything once that isn’t likely to seriously harm you, kind of curious. More accepting of other weird things so long as they don’t harm people.
At least thats my experience as an Autist and with the couple of other high functioning autists I’ve known.
So for me… that all translates into: Make a video game.
The rules are complex, but hard, and objective.
Making a compelling ruleset, game world… that allows for creativity, rewards multiple play styles, encourages experimentation, has a complex dynamic world or at least gameplay, that can generate emergent conflicts or opportunities…
Thats what I’d like to do.
I’ve got a whole bunch of scrib notes of various elements of… well really, either many games, or a very, very complex game, to the point that my problem now is paring them down into essentially a minimum viable product, a base concept that is simple enough that I could actually implement it, create it, as a solo dev, in a way that wouldn’t take 5 years.
At some point, I’ll probably need to contract out some modelling and artist work, but I want to have a working model first… so far, still can’t start it due to being in too much pain, wrist seizes up too quickly… but its improving everyday, a little bit.
My… mom came down with an incredibly debilitating form of neuropathy when I was just about to go from elementary to middle school.
I… know what its like to care for someone in a whole lot of pain, that doesn’t even make sense to your doctors and 95% of people around you.
But uh yeah, anyway, a placebo that helps is a coping mechanism, not a placebo.
Might I suggest upgrading to a turn based strategy game like Civilization or Humankind?
Slower paced, but much more cognitively complex and engaging… you can actually get lost in the sort of emergent narratives.
Less rapid, twitchy tapping/clicking than tetris, might be something you could play longer before your hands make you wanna scream.
Granted, requires a bit more powerful and expensive of a machine to run than tetris… but if you already have a laptop, you might be able to run newer ones with graphics turned down.
Lots of other turn based strategy games also exist with all kinds of different settings and themes, many with less high powered graphics requirements… Xenonauts (2 is in early access or beta right now), if you want to lead a fireteam to stop alien invasions, for example.
My girl is a saint and takes amazing care of me when I can’t. I know how lucky I am to have her. I’ve never had to be the carer other than when an ex recovered from a crash, but that was all bruising and whiplash.
The Tetris thing is actually pretty specific, it doesn’t work for everyone. It helps with intrusive images and thoughts for me. https://theconversation.com/can-playing-tetris-help-prevent-ptsd-if-youve-witnessed-something-traumatic-226736 I’m decent at Tetris, saved up and bought the OG Gameboy back in the day. I get into the zone when I’m feeling bad and I can feel it push out some the bad stuff. It’s something to do with the forced geometric thinking.
I never really got into strategy games except for Sim City. Adventure point and click, RPG (especially SF and Fallout 1-3), fps (Doom and Duke). These days, I find games that my girl enjoys watching such as Zelda. She does her yarning and I’ll play Zelda. Just finished Tears of the Kingdom, was thinking about replaying MYST or something next.
How are you feeling?
Ah, I didn’t realize the specifics of Tetris and the geometric puzzling being particularly effective.
But if you did like SimCity, and the earlier Fallout games…
There are a lot of modern rough equivalents to those.
Open Transport Tycoon Deluxe is roughly SimCity 2000 on steroids… more game mechanics, similar level of graphics, open source, totally free.
Fallout 1 and 2 have many, expansive, total overhaul mods these days, that basically use the base game and tell an entirely new story with it.
There’s also Fallout Online, which is I think a modded/jerry-rigged version of Fallout 2 that expands it and turns it into a multiplayer, sort of MMO.
Beyond that you’ve got like… Atom RPG Trudograd, the ShadowRun pc games, Colony Ship… there have been a multitude of isometric RPG games with turn based combat in the years since Fallout 1/2…
And, if you liked Doom… well, there are now tons of Doom mods, infact, a reworked and opensource version of the Doom engine, gzdoom, has actually served as the engine a bunch of successful indie games have been built off of… the Zoomers have given such games the moniker of ‘Boomer Shooters’… but yeah theres tons of those kinds of games on Steam or otherwise available.
…
But uh anyways, me?
I’m doing alright.
I could trauma dump about all the insane bullshit I’ve been through, but whats the point?
Hermit me is happy me, genuinely.
I’m a simple man at heart.
Very intelligent snd academically gifted, high functioning autistic.
“Hell is other people.”
Socializing often doesnt go well for me because most people are hypocritical bullshitters by default about most things, I call that out instantly and laugh at it, and because most people are so stuck up their own asses, they hate me for that… the few who can laugh at themselves become friends.
But in the end, all I need to be happy is food, water, shelter, a decent bed and chair, some kind of creative input/output screen or otherwise.
I used to play bass, would love to get into that or perhaps another instrument if I can get decent dexterity recovery… but I am now almost at the point where I can actually do a daily walk, and I honestly just love going for nature walks, so that’ll be great.
If I can get a cheap but not immensely shitty apartment somewhere close to Canada, I plan on making a video game … doesn’t have to make me rich, just serves as a creative and techbrained hobby… and, it might actually make some money, who knows.
How am I feeling?
https://youtube.com/watch?v=1jVaKBB0jHU
Like that.
Looks like the downvoters are chasing you again. Must be putting in work, fuckem.
I don’t get the same enjoyment from computer games that I used to. (I played heaviest when in highschool which was miserable and during my first marriage, which was hell) I rarely watch TV when alone. Tend to read or tinker, do some hardware hacking or whittling.
These days it’s a good way to spend time with my girl. Finishing up a Supernatural rewatch currently.
But yeah, it’s weird, I just don’t enjoy it the way I used to. Not that I don’t understand why people enjoy gaming so much. I’ve got a badass computer that I don’t think I’ve installed a game on. It’s built for CAD so it’s real beefy.
That, or I’m just becoming an old fart and casual gaming is more my speed.
My girl is high functioning, I’m crazy AF, but typical. When we were in a triad, that partner was high functioning as well. In the BDSM community, autists are so over represented compared to gen pop it’s wild. I don’t know what causes it, it’s probably a field that needs investigated. I tend to get along with autistic folks, always have, I think it’s a compatible communication style, I tend to over define by typical standards. Also, y’all don’t seem to lie much.
I’m a music lover and had music lessons on guitar and sax as a kid. However, I lack musical talent. I’m missing that spark that lets music flow and I can’t improvise or even come up with an original melody or rhythm. I just wasn’t born with it.
My talents are mechanical and artistic. I’m better at sculpture than drawing or painting.
You don’t have to have a reason to make a video game other than you want to. Maybe it makes money, maybe it doesn’t. Completing something you built, you put art and science into it, that’s a powerful thing. Taking an idea and making it real is an addictive thing. (Probably has a lot to do with why I love machining so much.) You should do it. Don’t wait until you’ve moved, no reason you can’t start.
Laying down and don’t have headphones, I’ll have to listen to it tomorrow.
Hope you have a goodnight.
Pissed off somebody with an alt account doing some hardcore gaslighing/copaganda.
Got reaaaallly mad when the concept of ‘abusive relationship’ being a bigger circle that contains ‘domestic violence’ within it came up.
Also got pissed when I told them their ‘counter citation’ from the fucking Polygraph Institute was bullshit on its face, as actual sciencr has shown repeatedly that all polygraphs do is show stress, nervousness… not truth at all, as someone may be able to calm down and lie, or tell the truth while having a mini panic attack due to trauma.
As to gaming… hey I mean, stick with your comfy with if thats what your comfy with, was just giving some suggestions if maybe you wanted a change of pace.
(I have my own barely substantiated theories about how you can psych profile people based on their favorite games and play time lol, but I’m pretty sure no one has ever done a publically released study on that… on the other hand, larger tech firms almost certainly have, and then cross reffed it with the social media data either from their own platforms or that they paid for)
To music: guitar and sax eh? Can’t say I’ve heard of that combo in one person before, but yeah… with bass, I’m the same in that I just am not that good at improvising.
However, I think I could learn some actual music theory, and then understand whats … actually going on, the rules the game is played by, and then be able to do it just a bit.
But… I can improvise on a harmonica, and while singing. I’m a decent baritone, and picked up a harmonica one day and it just… clicked. I cannot explain it at all.
Unfortinately, my computer, my bass… everything is all gone now, yay idiot family + more bad luck = me homeless for 2 years.
Gotta get my body in decent working order before trying to tackle anything else, so I am just doing that.
As for autists in the BDSM community:
To me the explanation is very, very simple.
BDSM communities have rules. Explicit rules.
Autists have sex drives just like anyone else, but … most people are too inconsistent and hypocritical to even have a normal relationship with, much less a romantic one, that isn’t plauged with a hypercharged version of miscommunication, as compared to neurotypical relationships.
I am at the point now where I would pretty much only consider a long term relationship with another autist.
But anyways, yeah, BDSM has rules. Autists like it very much when the rules are explicit and hard, not suggested and wiggly depending on a million other possible variables that will all be significantly different for every single person.
Autists also tend to be more curious. Try anything once that isn’t likely to seriously harm you, kind of curious. More accepting of other weird things so long as they don’t harm people.
At least thats my experience as an Autist and with the couple of other high functioning autists I’ve known.
So for me… that all translates into: Make a video game.
The rules are complex, but hard, and objective.
Making a compelling ruleset, game world… that allows for creativity, rewards multiple play styles, encourages experimentation, has a complex dynamic world or at least gameplay, that can generate emergent conflicts or opportunities…
Thats what I’d like to do.
I’ve got a whole bunch of scrib notes of various elements of… well really, either many games, or a very, very complex game, to the point that my problem now is paring them down into essentially a minimum viable product, a base concept that is simple enough that I could actually implement it, create it, as a solo dev, in a way that wouldn’t take 5 years.
At some point, I’ll probably need to contract out some modelling and artist work, but I want to have a working model first… so far, still can’t start it due to being in too much pain, wrist seizes up too quickly… but its improving everyday, a little bit.
Step by step.