I keep thinking about stuff like:
- The fact that there are galaxies I won’t be able to visit (because I’d be dead before humanity goes interstellar)
- The face that my childhood sucked and I could never really experince a normal childhood again in this lifetime (feeling of “nostalgia”)
- The fact that there are secrets the government is hiding that the average civillian will never be able to know (fear of “missing out”)
- We may never discover the true nature / true origin of the universe (at least, not in my lifespan)
- Not knowing if the world is even real (as in, simulation theory, solipcism)
- There would be Movies and TV shows I wont be able to experience (fear of missing out)
- There were technology that I never got to experience “in the moment”: telegraphs, black and white tv, radios, old gaming devices, etc… (I mean yes, they still exist, but its not the same as experiencing it in that time period). To be clear, I still prefer current and future technology, but I just want to go back in time for like a week to check things out like it was back then, then come back, you get what I’m saying?
I can’t ever just stop thinking and relax. My brain is so fucked.
This isn’t like a “phase”, this has been my life for years. Constant non-stop thoughts. 😓
Perhaps not really helpful, but from experience I can tell you, if you live long enough the technology and lifestyle of now will be what future generations won’t get to experience. If you’re thinking, “but now sucks!” well that’s probably what people who lived in those previous times would say to you.
You may spend too much time and energy wondering about the what-ifs and too little making the best of your life, but at least you’re not one of those people who completely close themselves off to wonder and empathy and anything outside themselves.
If you manage to channel your fascination and create a time travel vessel, bon voyage and don’t tell anyone, because for sure someone will weaponize it.